DAMN it's been a long time since i've posted..

just to let y'all know, i'm still in korea..i know i've been MIA and not keeping in touch with everybody..so sorry for that..

but i'm doing pretty well, just chillin out at home most of the time and trying to make some money before i get back to canada..(Lord knows when that'll be)..

i also wanted to apologize for making everyone think i was leaving..i just can't get enough of this country!  hahahah..j/k..but seriously, sorry about making u guys all come out for my "farewell" parties..hahah..i really thought i was gonna leave!  honest! 

what else..nothing new has happened..my life has been pretty bland lately..just working and resting working and resting..trying to save up money, so..haven't really been hanging out at all..

ummmmm..other than that..yea..got nothin interesting to say..i live in a crazy house with 3 roommates..and they always have their friends over at REALLY INDECENT hours of the night..i've never spoken so much korean in my life..but it's good..i could use the practice..

i hope everyone's doing well and in good health.. ^^

take care and feel free to leave me a message..

thanx.

it has come to my attention that i am a slut..hehehe..just kidding..

i'm getting really tired of being in korea..i mean, i really like being here and everything, but becuz of some recent drama..i'm just NOT having a good time at all..

what are my plans what are my plans..the other day i wrote out all the things i have to do once i get to vancouver..i swear, it's like i'm immigrating to canada..

for those of u who care, here's my list:

1) LIVING: Sister's apt (temporarily)
     -Move to studio apt *near school*
     -OR UBC housing
     -OR get a roomie
2) WORK: White Spot
     -OR Cactus/Earl's *West Broadway*
3) SCHOOL: Apply for readmission
     -Apply for student loan
     a) Commerce: Marketing
     b) Journalism (+2 years for master's..)
   *c) Architecture (+3.5 years for master's..hmm~)
     d) Urban Planning
     -Minor in Korean/Japanese
     -OR Culinary Arts outside of UBC (YUMMMM)
4) NECESSITIES:
     -Phone
     -Driver's license
     -Internet
     -Credit Card
5) OPTIONS AFTER GRAD:
     -Work in Canada, US, Korea, or Japan (YEAH RIGHT!)

so there's the tentative next 3-7 years of my life..how depressing is that?  knowing exactly what ur gonna be doing till 3-7 years later..i'll be 29 by then!!!!!  scary..i really wish i had graduated before i came to korea..*sigh* too late to cry about it now..

i can't wait to get home and start my life over again..kinda exciting, kinda scary..hmm..but i'm glad overall..just to go home and see everybody and everything i haven't been able to see this past year..can't believe i've been in korea for so long..

learned some very valuable life lessons here..got to meet lotsa cool people..learned the language to some extent..got to get back to my roots..well, half of my roots anyway..

so now what?  when do i leave??  hmmmm..my visa expires October 28th-ish so i gotta leave by then for SURE..i was originally planning on leaving at THAT time, but now that a buncha my friends despise me, i think i'd better get goin before september's over..

only thing is, my mom and dad want me to convince my company to CANCEL my contract altogether before i leave korea..so that might take some time..

in other news, i've started to NOT shave..that's right..scruffy andy's back..i'm down to shaving once a week..and it feels good~  shaving is really a pain in the ass..

hmmm..i guess that's all i gotta say for now..i'm hungry..somebody feed this poor starving child..maybe i'll get sandwich..

take care everybody..
till next time..

so it's been freakin agez since i posted on my xanga..and what have i accomplished since the last time i posted??  absolutely NOTHIN..

it's been rainin cats and dogs in seoul, and it's gettin me real down these days..but, after today's service, i'm learnin to deal with it..it ain't so bad i guess..just gotta start lookin at the brighter side of things..

hmmmm..so, i got like, 4 more offers to be a singer..and i turned em all down..'cept one, i just told the guy i'd think about it..but don't worry folks, i ain't gonna do it!  i'm so done here..but for some reason i don't wanna leave korea just yet..i've been here for 2.5 years now..and, it's just grown on me..

i've adapted to this stinkin country, and now moving back to vancouver would actually be weird for me..so, until i fully decide my plan for the next chapter of my life, seoul it is..i'm giving myself one month MAX to say my goodbyes and junk..ok 2 months MAX..haha..

plus, i just got this dope project that pays pretty good money..recording english..check this out, they call it 'chanting' and there's 4 of us doing it..

one person will go "MY NAME IS BORA KIM!!!!!" (IN THE GAYEST WAY POSSIBLE), and the remaining 3 people shout back "MY NAME IS BORA KIM!!!!!"  HAHA..we had to re-record so many times cuz i couldn't stop laughing..it's pretty fun i guess..sure beats workin in a restaurant waitering/hosting for minimum wage..

anyway, i'm currently looking for HOUSING..that's my most important thing at the moment..i've so overstayed my welcome at my buddy's place, and i feel bad..so, if anyone knows of CHEAP housing here in korea, monthly rent, no contracts or anything like that..the advice would be much appreciated..

what else is goin on??  hmmmmm..lotsa ppl have left korea..well, i suppose it ain't lots, but, mae left, my sister left, patricia left, and i just said goodbye to klair who's goin back to pohangz..

u better keep in touch klair!  and don't come back all pohangdified out..

well, i guess that's all i have to say for now..please leave me a message..my xanga's lookin pathetic..and i could use the support..

thanx..till next time..

not much time to write stuff here..but, i need to find a new place REALLY soon..so if anybody knows places in korea that i can live temporarily without having to sign a one year contract, please help me out..

things are going pretty good..i mean, as good as they can be just doing nothing everyday..

well, i gotta get goin, so take care everybody, and i'll update and start xanga'ing ppl back soon..

any advice on living spaces in korea would be much appreciated..thanx!

so..andy's been really shady lately, not posting too much specific stuff on his xanga..but, now that everything has been SETTLED finally..here it is..what's been goin on in the past month or so..

so, starting about 2 months ago, my producer has been saying some really harsh things to me about the business and about me..things i guess i knew, but never really thought about..

anyway, i really got to thinkin and about a month ago, i decided "I'M GONNA CALL IT QUITS.."  my plan was/is to just go back to canada and reinvest all my time and energy where i can actually make a stable future for myself..

i've been here in korea for over 2 years now..and i have nothing to show for it..i haven't even started working on my album yet for cryin out loud..yea, i've invested so much time and effort, and it would seem like such a waste if i just quit and went home..but..a person can only take so much being dicked around by idiots who don't know what they're doing or talking about..

anyway, 3 weeks ago my producer tells me, "andy, u've been so moody lately, what's up??"  and i said to him, "i don't wanna do it anymore..i'm just drained, and i don't have the drive, the passion to do it anymore..i'm sorry.."

and he goes, "ok, go back to ur place, and i'll call u later..."

so i get a call the next day, telling me to come to the studio where i met my manager and producer..MAN was i ever nervous..

i explain to my manager how i feel like i'm throwing away so much of my time and youth, and that i think i'd have a more secure future with a college degree..

he said, "i'll give u 3 days to think EVERYTHING through..if u still decide to leave, we have to talk about how we're gonna deal with the contract, and how ur gonna pay us all the money back that we've spent on u.."

so i go home, FREAKED out..cuz not only would i have to pay all the money they spent on me back, in the contract, it says that if i decide to leave early, i have to pay back 3 times whatever they spent on me up to that point..i'll give u the total LATER..

and this is also why i've been fighting so much with my parents lately..they want me to continue/finish what i started..

anyway, they said 3 days..but they actually gave me almost 2 weeks to think it through..which i did..and this was my period of vomit, anxiety attacks, and insomnia..great great fun..

so, i totally avoid contact with my company people cuz i'm just horrified to hear about how they want me to pay all this money back..

but they called yesterday and came over to my place..this is pretty much the gist of what happened..

ANDY: i've decided that school is the best choice for me..

COMP: well, now we have to discuss the contract..how do u wanna deal with the contract andy??

ANDY: i dunno..i've thought about it..but i need to know what the company wants to do before i can take any actions or make any decisions..

COMP: we gave u 2 weeks to think about it..and that's all u have to say??  we spent a LOT of money on you so far..ur housing, ur profile pictures, introducing u to PDs, giving u studio time..

ANDY: ok, so if money's the topic here tell me how much i owe, and then i can give u my plan..

COMP: *scribbling on paper and punching numbers into calculator*
-rent 50man won times 8 months..
-electricity 10man won (which is BS cuz i have the receipt and it's only 4man won..)
-profile pictures 100man won..
-contract money 500man won..
-studio time approx. 50man won..
so andy, ur bill is over 1000man won..
TIMES THREE so that comes out to somewhere between 3000man won and 4000man won..
how do u wanna do this??

ANDY: *SPEECHLESS WITH HEAD HANGING LOW* trying to force some fake tears out of my eyes to get some sympathy..

COMP: andy, take off ur baseball cap, cuz we can't see ur face..

ANDY: *PISSED OFF SO HE THROWS HIS CAP ON THE FLOOR* WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

COMP: can ur dad pay for this??  can u pay for this??

ANDY: no i can't..are u telling me u want me to pay 3 times what i owe??

COMP: no, we're just telling u that's the total..we wanna know how u wanna deal with this..

ANDY: i can't pay 3 times what i owe..that's impossible..so i'll give u back the deposit for this house, that takes care of half my bill..and i'll just have to stay in korea and work off my debt..which means i won't get to go back to school any time soon..

COMP: well u have to promise us a certain amount of money every month..

ANDY: WELL I HAVE TO LOOK FOR A JOB BEFORE I CAN TELL YOU HOW I CAN PAY..

COMP: well..then..aside from working to pay us off, u have no other reason to be in korea do u??

ANDY: no i don't..

*looooooooooong silence*

COMP: andy..tell u what..don't pay us a single penny..just leave..get out of korea, and go back to school..we'll just leave things as is..go back to canada, and go back to school..

ANDY: *SPEECHLESS* what?!

COMP: how does that sound??

ANDY: i don't know what to say..

COMP: well, just say thanks..how fast can u get out of this apartment, cuz if u keep living here, i think i'll just end up feeling more bitterness towards you..

ANDY: ummmmm..can i have till the end of the month??

COMP: u have until the 20th to leave..give us a call before u leave, and we'll buy u dinner..

ANDY: ok..thank you..

and that was THAT..as for my music career, i'll have to wait 3 more years to do anything..otherwise i have to pay back 3 times what i owe if i wanna pursue anything before my contract ends.. *PHEW*!

so..am now in the process of looking for a place to stay in korea until the end of august, TENTATIVELY i plan on leaving around then..

i'm a little bummed out that i'm not gonna do it..but..i realized that i started this whole thing for the wrong reasons..well, maybe not the wrong reasons, but..i just don't think i'm the type of person who could make it as a gasoo here in korea..don't fit the job description..

so yea..that's my life up to this point..

i need to pack up, and get the heck outta here..i'll be in korea for a while..at LEAST till mid august..so there'll be plenty of time for hanging out and goodbyes..it's been crazy..but i think i've had my share of waiting and just not doing anything with my life..

i wanna thank everyone who prayed for me, it seriously went better than i ever imagined it would..

God is AWESOME!!!!!!!!  Çϳª´ÔÀÌ ³»±âµµµé ´Ù µéÀ¸¼Ë±º¿ä~

so..i'm scared..of starting my life over in canada..but..it'll be so refreshing and awesome to just work on my future..UBC HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is getting kinda long..so i'll end here..gimme a call!

oh and if anyone wants to buy a futon, nightstand, small bookshelf, washing machine, or mini fridge, let me know!!!!!!!!!!!!  i need money..  ¤Ð,¤Ð

or if u know anyone who wants to buy one PLEASE..i have 10 days to get out of here and get rid of everything..contact me..

peace